These documents were turned over to police by Brown’s wife after his May 2015 arrest, which led to a fourth-degree domestic violence charge that was dropped five days later. They include personal journal entries, emails from Brown to his then-wife, Molly, and a letter to friends in which he detailed his own behavior.
Brown was suspended one game, the Giants’ opener, for a violation of the league’s personal conduct policy. He described the incident publicly as “just a moment,” despite his wife accusing him of more than 20 separate instances of domestic violence.
The documents released by the Kings County (Wash.) Sherriff’s office reveal Brown’s own admissions of guilt. He wrote that he saw himself as “God basically,” and his wife as his slave. He admits to a history of abusing women and calls himself a sexual deviant, acknowledging “consistent” viewing of pornography.
"I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man," Brown wrote in one of his journal entries. Just below that he circled the words "I have abused my wife."
Josh went even further in a letter he wrote to friends in March, 2014, apparently as part of his counseling sessions with Molly.
"I have been a liar for most of my life," he wrote. "I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
“Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave.”
According to NJ.com, Brown also admitted to potentially needing an anger counselor. His wife, in another journal entry that was released, wrote that Brown “pushes, shoves hits me because I challenge him” and that he “says women like me get hit because we can't shut up.”
The Giants have yet to respond to the new information after ownership and head coach Ben McAdoo threw their support behind Brown over the summer. It is unclear if the team or the NFL had access or viewed the information during separate investigations into Brown’s domestic violence case and arrest.
The league could conceivably re-open the kicker’s case, and charges in Washington could potentially be re-filed.
- Jeremy Woo